- I got around cleaning the soon-to-be animation space. Everything that didn't have a place is gone and the sports stuff got a box which should fit nicely under the table (which I will hopefully have by tuesday/wednesday).
- I'm still working on a PC game, but I feel a bit stuck. So this week I showed it to someone for the first time. We talked a bit about what I still want to do with it and made some brainstorming to get it to the next level. I am more positive about it now and will hopefully spend some more time on finishing it. It doesn't seem to be an obvious choice, but games have animation, too. You have to start somewhere and maybe someone will enjoy it in the end :).
- I got back to reading Preston Blair's book on drawing characters for animation, which also gives you an idea about planning and understanding scenes and movements. Just to fresh up on some basics. Maybe I'll write a review, once I'm done.
- There's only so much I can learn from trying, just doing and reading, so I did some research and found some online courses to do along the way.
Friday, 18 April 2014
Slow and steady
There is no use in pointing out all the failures and shortcomings of the last two weeks, so let's focus on what was done instead:
Sunday, 6 April 2014
Pondering doesn't get things done. Neither does writing.
What have I done this week to get closer to the goal?
To be quite honest, nothing at all really. At the beginning of the week, I read an article on how you stop going after what you want, once you made the thought public. It gives you a false feeling of accomplishment, it seems. I thought about that a lot, really (it is strange, that all these things seem to get to me so much at the moment), and I know this only too well. It's some sort of, well it's out there, the universe will take care of it now. Only that I don't believe in it and I can't put my finger on the reason, why I act that way exactly.
On the other hand I really feel like I have to have a place to write things down, to make progress - or the lack thereof - visible to myself.
Is there a way to combine the two? I don't know yet. But I observed, that after I made great plans on how to construct an animation corner for myself and discussed it with a friend, I just dropped the idea and thought about making clothes and painting. Like: job done, let's go on to the next thing. But it isn't done, I just planed it out and haven't done anything physical about it. Take today for example: Right now, I would love to have a canvas of about 1,8m x 2m and just paint. All day long. With breaks for tea and getting a different perspective, but today this is where all my yearning lies.
There are certain things one has to get out of the system in order to go on. For example, if you think about having a cup of tea all day long, actually having one takes your mind of that thought and you can move on to do other things. But at the scale now, it's hard to tell, whether thoughts like for example needing to paint are just to obstruct me or if it is part of the process of getting where I need to be. Even my back pain seems like an excuse, eventhough I really have to make time to work on that, otherwise I won't be able to do anything properly in the future, I have seen it with others. But I can't help but think, what will be the next thing that comes up? Am I afraid to get things done, because there is the possibility of plans not working out in the end?
Okay, getting back to the week at hand: Instead of working on my animationspace (I used my desk before, but I need it for work sometimes, so I thought it would be best to have a place, where it's okay to leave stuff), I started knitting, because I had feelings and visible signs of anxiety and it helps to calm me down. Alright, and because I want a fuzzy, loose-knit cloak. On the arts and animation front I only watched more documentaries about different artists ("What do artists do all day" is really great, thanks youtube).
Will have to see, what the new week brings. I have to try to get back to working normal hours, so that there is less stress to hide behind.
To be quite honest, nothing at all really. At the beginning of the week, I read an article on how you stop going after what you want, once you made the thought public. It gives you a false feeling of accomplishment, it seems. I thought about that a lot, really (it is strange, that all these things seem to get to me so much at the moment), and I know this only too well. It's some sort of, well it's out there, the universe will take care of it now. Only that I don't believe in it and I can't put my finger on the reason, why I act that way exactly.
On the other hand I really feel like I have to have a place to write things down, to make progress - or the lack thereof - visible to myself.
Is there a way to combine the two? I don't know yet. But I observed, that after I made great plans on how to construct an animation corner for myself and discussed it with a friend, I just dropped the idea and thought about making clothes and painting. Like: job done, let's go on to the next thing. But it isn't done, I just planed it out and haven't done anything physical about it. Take today for example: Right now, I would love to have a canvas of about 1,8m x 2m and just paint. All day long. With breaks for tea and getting a different perspective, but today this is where all my yearning lies.
There are certain things one has to get out of the system in order to go on. For example, if you think about having a cup of tea all day long, actually having one takes your mind of that thought and you can move on to do other things. But at the scale now, it's hard to tell, whether thoughts like for example needing to paint are just to obstruct me or if it is part of the process of getting where I need to be. Even my back pain seems like an excuse, eventhough I really have to make time to work on that, otherwise I won't be able to do anything properly in the future, I have seen it with others. But I can't help but think, what will be the next thing that comes up? Am I afraid to get things done, because there is the possibility of plans not working out in the end?
Okay, getting back to the week at hand: Instead of working on my animationspace (I used my desk before, but I need it for work sometimes, so I thought it would be best to have a place, where it's okay to leave stuff), I started knitting, because I had feelings and visible signs of anxiety and it helps to calm me down. Alright, and because I want a fuzzy, loose-knit cloak. On the arts and animation front I only watched more documentaries about different artists ("What do artists do all day" is really great, thanks youtube).
Will have to see, what the new week brings. I have to try to get back to working normal hours, so that there is less stress to hide behind.
Saturday, 29 March 2014
The Five Year Project
Yesterday I read an article about reinventing yourself. It said, that you basically need five years to start with something new and become successful with your new career. The last year is supposed to bring wealth, so I am not sure, if it can be done in four years, if I just want to make a living.
But back on the topic. During the last year I thought a lot about changing. So now is as good a time as any to really start. In five years from now, I will work in animation (or the arts). It's a bold statement, I know, but it won't work any other way.
I cleared out the old blog, so from now on this will be the place to document the journey, freak out and concentrate. Cross your fingers.
But back on the topic. During the last year I thought a lot about changing. So now is as good a time as any to really start. In five years from now, I will work in animation (or the arts). It's a bold statement, I know, but it won't work any other way.
I cleared out the old blog, so from now on this will be the place to document the journey, freak out and concentrate. Cross your fingers.
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